when the silence feels heavy.

 

3.05am/10.01.2025 Friday.

the hardest thg about waking up in the mid of the nite is realising dat sleep wont come as easily again. u lie there, hoping to drift off, but ur body seems to hav forgotten how to relax. the quiet arnd u feels heavy instead of comforting, and ur thoughts begin to wander - random memories, worries, and what-ifs fcukin creepin in like uninvited guests. u try shifting positions, adjusting ur pillow, but nothg works. the minutes tick by, and u r stuck in at strange in-between, neither fully awake nor asleep. 

and ur sure by the morning, it is as if u barely rested. it is not jst the lost sleep dat lingers - it is the feelin dat peace is always jst a little out of reach, slippin thru ur fingers when u need it the most.

sigh.