at the end of the day, u only hav urself..

 

when life got heavy and everythg felt too much, u realised no one was really there to catch u when u fell. when ur heart is crashing, and breaking - u had to to hold it together on ur own. when ur mind was full of battles, u had to fight them alone.

u picked urself up when u had no one to lean on. u wiped ur own tears when no one asked if u were ok. it hurts to knw ppl disappear when u need them the most, but it also taught u somethg important.

u learnt dat u can survive wit jst u. u learnt dat u r ur own safe place. u learnt dat u r fcukin stronger than u thought.

and even no one shows up, u still show up for urself.

u miss..

 

..the way they liked u at the beginning. when everythg felt new and u cld feel how much they wanted u around. they used to reply so fast, like they cldnt wait to talk to u. they always had somethg sweet to say - always found reason to compliment u.

they made u feel special w/o even tryin, they wanted to see u as often as they cld and it felt like u was so important to them - but now thgs changed.

the msges take longer, and no more. the effort feels less, now none. and the warmth u used to feel from them, is now gone. u jst miss dat version of them, the one who made u believe u mattered.

and u keep asking - can we ever go back to dat?

nthg speaks louder..

 

..than the silence between two ppl who went from falling in love to never speaking again, w/o closure. and wat makes it louder is dat one of them tried so hard to keep it, but the other one jst let it go like it was nothg.

it is the kind of silence dat stays even when everythg else moves on. it lives in the places u used to go together, in the late-night talks dat suddenly stopped, and in the memories dat still visit u when the world gets quiet.

it is a silence dat feels heavy, like an unfinished story dat no one cared to end. and dats the thg about silence, it doesnt need words to hurt. it jst stays there - between two hearts dat once knew each other so well, but now hav no idea wats goin on in each other's lives.

ur last act of love..

 

..is choosing not to reach out to them again, even on their birthday or any given day. u wont send a message, u wont ask how they r, u wont ask anyone about them, and u wont try to remind them dat u still care.

u wont watch their stories or look at their posts, u wont search for any signs dat they miss u. u will keep ur heart in ur own hands - even if it feels empty sometimes.

letting go doesnt mean u stop caring; it means u r choosing urself over the waiting, over the endless wishing for somethg dat isnt meant to be. u will rmbr them quietly, u will wish them well silently, and u will move forward with the hope dat one day - the space between the both of u will feel lighter, and ur heart will realize dat ur final act of love was not only for them. it was for u, too.