u loved. u tried. u grew.

all u want at the end of the day is to be able to view urself wit a calmed pride. not dat kinda yells or grabs attention; rather, the kinda seems earned and honest. u wanna be happy of the person u've developed - the decisions u took, the ideals u kept, the manner u loved.

even if u din feel safe to do so - u wanna knw dat u offered ur heart fully. dat u din shut urself off only since life had let u down. u still tried even thru disappointment. u still expressed concern. u still showed up for ppl u love bcoz dat is who u r, not bcoz u had to. and dat counts.

more than anythg, u wanna believe dat ur presence made a difference - dat the ppl around u felt seen, felt understood, felt a lil less alone bcoz u were there, in their life. u wanna knw dat ur effort meant somethg, even if it wasnt always recognised. dat ur empathy, ur patience, ur time - they counted.

u wanna be glad for the messier aspects of life u managed. u din avoid the difficult thgs, which is more important than dat u got everythg perfect. u answered it. u cld feel it. u came away from it knowing. u let urself flourish even tho dat meant suffering. even wit ur heart now ready, u let go when it was time. and by doin dis - u cleared room for improved opportunities.

u wanna be able to say - wit clarity and conviction, dat u din let pain define u. dat u din let ur flaws hold ur back. dat u din spend ur life waiting for the perfect moment to live - but instead chose to life fully - even on those fcukin imprects days.

in the end, when u look back - wat u'll want most is to be able to say dat u din waste ur time here. dat u survived everythg dat was meant to break u - and shomehow, in the process; u became someone even better.

and dats the version u worth being proud of.