wats inside, always spills over.

 

hurt people hurt others. at least, dat’s how i see it. i’ve been there - on both sides of it. most of the time, it’s not intentional. i mean, who wld willingly want to hurt someone else, kan? i dun think anyone does. but sometimes, it feels like carrying a weight so heavy dat it eventually spills over. it’s not about being cruel; it’s about not knowing how to handle wats happening inside. and in the process, u end up hurting the ones u care about the most.

but then, i’ve also seen the other side. happy ppl, the ones who carry peace within themselves, seem to spread dat joy effortlessly. it’s not becoz their lives r perfect or free of problems. it’s becoz they’ve made peace wit wat they’ve been thru. their smiles feel real, their energy feels comforting, and being around them pun dah cukup buat hidup ko rasa a little better. and yes, happiness, jst like pain, is contagious.

and i’ve realized dis: we magnify wat we r. watever we carry within us, whether it is unresolved hurt or genuine joy, will show up in how we treat others. dats y healing matters. dats y it is so important to take care of wats going on inside. if we can work on healing, on finding small moments of joy, we’ll naturally pass dat on to the ppl around us. but if we keep carrying our wounds, they’ll keep spilling out, whether we mean for them to or not.

sometimes, i catch myself snapping at someone or pulling away, and it makes me stop and think - tf is really goin on with me? am i carryin somethg i need to deal wit? i’ve come to see dat how i treat others is often a reflection of wats happenin inside me. and i knw if i want to spread kindness, warmth, and love or watever tf it is - i need to start by filling myself with those thgs first.

i knw it is not about being perfect. it is about being honest wit urselves and aware of wat u r carrying. becoz at the end of the day, we r all mirrors, reflecting the world within us onto the world around us. wat we giv starts wit wat we hold inside.

i am sorry for dis. probably kinda heavy for starting a day. jst dat i need to spill dis out and spare some space in the head, for somethg else.

u hav a good day ahead, ya?