the weight of words left behind.

 

when someone says, "i dun think i'll find someone like u," it feels like a quiet miracle, doesnt it? like in dat moment, they saw u - like fcukin truly saw u - and every lil piece of urself u thought was invisible or unremarkable, suddenly shined. though u keep sayin dat "no, i am sure u'll find someone way better than jst me", silently u carry their words wit u, letting them wrap around ur bloody heart, replaying em when the world feels heavy. they become a soft place to land, a reminder dat u mattered to someone.

but then, the silence creeps in. days turn into weeks, weeks into months - and their presence fades like a whisper in the wind. the calls stop, the conversations dwindle, and u r left holding those words, clutching at their warmth, even as it begins to slip away. u wonder if they really meant it, or if those words were jst a shitty reflection of a fleeting moment, an emotion they couldnt hold steady. and the absence of their voice, their laughter, their everythg - it feels like a hollow ache, worse than any freakin goodbye.

still, u cant hate those words. they were real to u, even if they werent meant to last. they remind u of wat it feels like to be valued, to be unforgettable, even for a lil while. and maybe, jst maybe, it’s okay if they couldnt stay. becoz those words werent jst about u - they were a mirror, showing them wat they cldnt keep and showin u jst how much ur worth.

and in the quiet of the absence, u’ll learn to hold onto urself a lil tighter. becoz one day, u’ll realize it is not about whether they’ll find someone like u or not. it is about knwg dat ur still here, still whole, still glowing, even when they r not.