dear previous me,
if i cld sit across from u now, i’d tell u dat some lessons r like slow rain - soft, almost silent, yet steady enough to change the shape of thgs over time.
i knw u r always reaching, searching thru ppl and plans, as if somewhere out there is the answer dat’ll make u feel whole. but here’s wat i knw now: some of wat ur looking for is alrdy within u. and the rest, well, it’s not found in the loud places or in anyone else’s expectations. it lives in the stillness, the spaces u usually skip over. dat’s where u’ll find the thgs dat matter most.
ppl will come and go - at their ease. some will see u, and others will try to change u. Some make u happy, some use u. it’ll take time, but one day, u’ll see dat it’s okay to let go of wat doesnt feel true. ur allowed to walk away from paths dat dun align, even from parts of urself u’ve outgrown. saying "no" to the wrong thgs, or even "fcuk off" makes room for the right thgs to take root.
there’ll be days dat weigh heavy, nights dat dun make sense, but here’s the beauty in all of it: each crack, each ache, they r part of the blueprint. they’ll shape u into someone who understands wat it means to be fully alive. when u let urself be real, w/o worrying who’s watching, u’ll attract the ones who resonate wit dat realness.
take ur bloody time, step by step. life isn’t a race, and ur not behind. trust dat every moment is leading u somewhere, dat every pause has its purpose. ur becoming exactly who ur meant to be - believe in dat. and if anyone tells u to not bein so nice, tell em to gtfo - for it is okay to be good, and it is okay to be nice to everybdy. long as they dun take u for granted, u will be jst fine. rmbr dat.
wit all the patience u’ll need,
a future u
