Sunday (and esk Monday).

 

it’s Sunday, hari ke-8 puasa, and aku rasa okay je. much better, in fact. probably ada hikmahnya aku dok berpuasa sunat before. sahur jst minum air kosong pun aku ok, inshaAllah. probably bkn tu je, maybe sbb it is Sunday la jgk kot. theres somethg about Sundays yg buat dunia rasa lbh slow, lbh chill. it’s dat one day where ko tak pyh nak rush mender, tak perlu alarm pagi2, tak perlu fikir banyak benda. and Ramadhan? ko tak pyh kalut nak fikir wats for breakfast, wats for lunch semua. ko jst relax, tarik nafas, and exist.

to sebnrnya dlm kepala aku ni, aku tau - it’s still Sunday. and trow? Monday. fcuk. big time.

dat’s when the mood starts to shift. Monday ni sumpah ada vibe dia sendiri - dat grind mode, hustle, bustle, classes, and dat never-ending cycle of “bodoe bila nak habis ni?”. and esk looks like aku ada kelas from pg sampai ptg. makin aku fikir, makin rasa mls. tak fikir, kena fikir jgk. for i was away from the ofc for the whole one week - last week - and esk first day masuk keje balik. not dat aku org besar or somethg or someone yg acah byk keje, tp keje ttp keje. kan? and bkn aku mls nak masuk kelas ke apa, tp mls nak hadap the whole Monday energy yang biasanya tak mudah.

but then again, kalau fikir balik, ko dah lalui so many Mondays before. some were bad, some were jst biasa2, and ada jgk yg surprisingly ok. so i gez, instead of stressing about it, maybe aku patut chill je lah kot. enjoy the day as it is, maybe i shld do some readin, on somethg light, or jst bagi otak aku ruang sblm masuk battlefield esk. buku? maybe not. sounds nerdy. maybe some movies. or keluar layan sembang dgn si Qayyum, since Milo yg dlm rmh mls even nak bukak mulut.

i knw at the end of the day, Monday is just another day. penat tu confirm ada, but mcm hari2 lain, it will pass. maybe aku shld look for some small thgs to look forward to - dpt layan kopi Aik Cheong pun sedap pagi2 ni. but no, aku puasa. so, apa2 je lah.

trow’s gonna come anyway, so y let it ruin the last few peaceful hours of Sunday, kan?

gitchiew.