y chase those who wont keep up?

 

u ever catch urself bending over backward for someone who wldnt even lean forward for u? who dun even giv a fcukin shyte on good thgs u do, to them? it is funny - no, frustrating - it is, how often dis happens.

y do we keep tryin so hard for ppl who dun even try for us? ppl who dun meet us halfway, or even a quarter of the way. yet there we r, givin and givin, hoping they’ll fcukin notice.

maybe it’s becoz we care too much. or, maybe - becoz deep down, we think if we try harder, they’ll finally see our worth. maybe. i said, maybe. or, maybe we’ve convinced ourselves dat givin up means we failed - dat we din “love enuff” or “do enuff.”

yet i came to a realisation a lil while ago on one thg: u cant force someone to show up for u. u cant make someone stand up for u. or be there for u. u cant make someone value u jst becoz u value them on the first place pun. darn it doesnt work dat way. u knw it doesnt work dat way too, dun u?

so, y do we do it? i dun knw. i dun hav the answer. maybe it is habit. maybe it is hope. or maybe it’s jst who we r  - we giv becoz we want to, becoz we dun know how not to. becoz we dun knw wat else to do. but there comes a point where u have to ask urself: is dis worth it?

i realised dat trying too hard for someone who wldnt do the same for u is not noble. u mght not be agree wit me, but it's ok - like i truly giv a flyin fcuk pun. the fact is - it is draining. memenatkan. relationship - friendships, family, love - darn they need balance. they need ppl who try together.

so, i gez if someone doesnt try for u, maybe it is time to stop tryin so hard for them. save ur energy for those who show up, those who care w/o u asking, and those who make u feel like u r enuff - jst as u r. get up, stand up, and walk ur fat arse out of it.

y? becoz u r enuff. and anyone who doesnt see dat? well, maybe they r the ones who dun fcukin deserve u, at all.

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u hav a good day ahead, ya?